Music..

I miss having the time to really listen to music. I love music. I always have. But I haven't had the time or energy to really sit back and listen to any. I use to search the internet and look for new bands that I had never heard before. I don't even remember the last time I did that!

Right now I am listing to music a friend of mine made and it is so beautiful. I love it when you can clearly see how talented someone is. It makes you so happy for them. I wish I had that kind of talent. The kind that you can share with anyone, not just those physically around you.

I have come to the conclusion that Lance works WAY too much. I never get to see him when I want to see him. I should be use to this by now, but I am not.

It is sad. It is only 8:37 and for the past 20-30 minutes my eyes have been rolling... wanting to take me to sleep land... too bad my mind wants me to stay awake to see my husband.

Finally, a post

I always feel as though I have nothing to update about. But, really, I do. There are the small things that happen in day to day life. The things so small you take them for granted each time the day passes. Life is short, and my daughter is showing me this. It seems like it was just yesterday that I was sitting in the hospital amazed at something so small. Now, almost 6 months later, I am calling her monster. Not because she is a monster, but because she is the size of one! She has grown so much in such a small amount of time. I feel my tiny baby floating away and sailing toward me is just a baby. It may not make sense to you, but it makes total sense to me. In some ways, it makes me sad. I want my small baby back. The one that you have to rock to sleep, the one that only smiles for gas and cries for food. Still though, I am excited for what is to come. She is so close to crawling, it is not even funny. She smiles all the time, and at everyone. She almost falls asleep without help at night and doesn't wake up at all during the night. I can not wait for the crawling and chasing and baby proofing and walking and all of those things. I just wish these stages of her childhood lasted a bit longer.

Right about now, I am kicking myself for not keeping the camera close by at all times. I need to find out what kind of camera a friend of mine got, because I love the quality of her photos that she posts on her blog. I love photography enough to finally allow myself to get an awesome camera.

House hunting is still on... I felt so close the other day to closing the deal on a home and now I feel so far away. I hate house hunting. I do not recommend it.

We were suppose to go out tonight and take Alyssa to the "pumpkin patch" and take photos by the pumpkins and smiles and what nots. Too bad the clouds decided it was a nice time to pee on us. I love rain and all, but when it ruins my plans of fun... that is just not cool.

too tired to write - only able to post photos...